#school sucking creativity

[penguinzzz]

...I forgot how to draw.

[lilgayducky]

I'm struggling with a lot right now

But I don't really know how

To explain when my bright grin

Hides what I'm feeling within

But the smiles not fake

It's not a mistake

When I'm actually happy

It's just that maybe

Well sometimes at night

(Like every night)

I shed a tear or two (or a few)

But this feeling ain't new

It's like this a lot

Honestly I've kinda forgot

What it's like to not feel this way

There's a lot I could say

But I don't know how to explain

What it's like in my brain

And today's a brand new day maybe

I'll remember to drink water

And I won't forget to eat lunch again

And I'll brush my teeth twice

Yeah that would be nice

If I went to sleep before midnight

And woke up at 8, went for a run

It could even be fun

And I'd journal every evening

But not write much cause

I wouldn't have so many feelings

And I'd wear pretty skirts out every day

(Although I do that anyway)

I'd get compliments at every street

From every kind person I meet

And I'd feel comfortable and confident

And wouldn't care what people think

But now all I do is think

And it feels like I might sink

And drown beneath my thoughts

I'm spiralling again (and again and again and again and-)

What am I supposed to do?

Why do I feel so fucking blue

And purple and yellow and red too

Am I going crazy?

Cause it sure does feel that way

Will this poem have an end?

Cause as much as I pretend

To be talented I can't seem to finish

Anything I start

Not a story not a poem not a fight (wait what?)

It doesn't even rhyme don't make sense it's silly

I should just give up

Go home

Go to bed and cry

I shouldn't even try

Uncreative, unoriginal, unworthy

The title of my story

Not that anyone will read it so what's the point?

When I always seem to disappoint

Yeah I'm struggling with a lot right now

And I don't really know how

To explain.

[hplonesomeart]

Potential volume warning?? Maybe?? Just a lot of sudden over-enthusiastic monkey screeches and giddy hand claps (provided by yours truly). Wish I had more time on my hands to provide a clever edited segue into this video but NAH. Nah just immediately get hit with lot of incoherent ramblings which I’ve had saved on my device—all related to a singular fixation on a fictional robot guy. If you had a shred of doubt about how much I am dedicated to loving his character before, then perhaps this will change your presumption lol

….I don’t owe anyone an explanation to this insanity jskjsksp. I choose to openly expose myself in the pursuit of getting over being undeniably cringe!! No more being in denial or downplaying just how happy he makes me teehee. Pay no mind don’t even worry about it. This post never happened it was all a dream. I’m living in my blissful delusional cocoon with no shame attached thank you very much :))

But yea!! Here have some highlights/snippets from various audio recordings I keep to myself. Some are related to when I was initially introduced to Mr. Puzzles character and others are more recent. Most stem from my time looking at fanart, watching episodes, analyzing his character and whatnot. Probably won’t ever release the full things lol. It’s all very much self indulgent sillies as per usual—it’s nice having a way to preserve these emotions & visceral reactions. Why keep restricting expressing your happiness when you can let it all out? (I say this and then proceed to avoid talking openly about Mr. Puzzles irl out of worry oop). It’s no matter…posting this is only at the detrimental expense of my usual calm & collected facade. Mutuals I promise I’m usually far more normal and well adjusted then this footage shows (totally still not in denial) <<

[lunior-art]

me when i try to write poems (not great)

Unholy Devotion

I despise you.

Deep-seated hatred

Seeps through.

I despise you.

Every inch of your body

Screams sacrilege

I cannot stay true.

I despise you.

When your voice raw with worship

Pounds in my head

Begging for entry

Stirring ado.

I despise you.

Silent longing exchanged

Across the sea of devotees

Twists my beliefs

All I once knew

As I abandon my virtue.

I despise you.

For this love I cannot undo.

[excelsior9173]

and on a slightly less serious note-

I AM ALSO PANICKING BECAUSE I SEVERELY UNDERESTIMATED WHAT A UNIVERSITY ENGLISH COURSE WOULD ENTAIL

WHAT DO YOU MEAN WE HAVE AN IN CLASS ESSAY?! WHAT DO YOU MEAN WE WILL BE WRITING IN ALMOST EVERY CLASS?!

i am going to cry i cannot write to save my life you should’ve seen all my essays throughout my last degree 😭 i tried the whole creative writing thing in high school (tried to write fic lmao and i gave up almost immediately) so like. i have very little hope now

this might actually be the first time i ever use office hours with a prof. idk how to get through this course without a shitload of guidance

[menacarychamber]

My honest confession I've been doing nothing but be on my phone for like a week i only wrote a bit today and that's it i feel like a dum dum right now help

[thrilling-oneway]

i forgot i had "character analysis is my passion" in my bio because i probably put it there in late 2022..? and at that point the only serious character analysis i'd done outside media class and posted online was for sth so it was kinda just me being obnoxious but i guess it fits now since prsk character analysis is the only real thing i contribute lol. foreshadowing but not intentionally

[the-cinnamontography-is-amazing]

After my last few writing classes that made me want to change my minor completely, I am absolutely in love with my classes this semester.

Like I am getting fantastic feedback from my professors! I'm excited about the projects! For once in my life I'm like "oh shit, maybe I don't suck too much!" lol

Keep writing kids. 🫡

[swaghaver69]

i feel a heavy pressure like someone is sitting on my chest making it so i can’t breathe whenever i think about how every single structure in society and social conditioning makes it so that women have no choice but to inevitably end up with a male and it is pushed so hard as the only possible viable option and it feels choking and inescapable (personal rambling vent in tags)

[igottoomuchtime]

Presidential facts.

BANDS/MUSIC

George Washington – English folk songs. +Hated the quality of the army’s songs. +Only president who didn’t hear a marine band.

John Adams – Classical Music.

Thomas Jefferson – Opera/Mozart.

James Madison – Mozart again/Classical, basically with a hint of rock.

James Monroe – We don’t know for sure, but he did have a piano.

John Quincy Adams – Ballads. +Played the flute!

Andrew Jackson – Ballets/’Auld Lang Syne’ song. +At one of his receptions, the Marine Band played this song while guests ate a 1,400 lbs. "Mammoth Cheese".

Martin Van Buren – I literally don’t know, I forgot this guy was a president, all I could find was lullabies and ballets.

William Henry Harrison – Couldn’t find anything again, but apparently, he inspired a political song in 1840, so maybe folk songs? Ha-ha, zinger!

John Tyler – Traditional folk, classical and national anthems.

James K. Polk – I’m personally guessing classical cause he took formal violin lessons.

Zachary Taylor – Polka!!

Millard Fillmore – Jenny Lind = Famous Diva, and Thomas Greene Bethune = Black Concert Piano Performer! + Ms. Fillmore enjoyed playing duets with her talented daughter, Mary Abigail, a fine amateur musician, proficient on the piano, harp and guitar.

Franklin Pierce – National Anthems, Patriotic, Classical.

James Buchanan – Polka and National Anthems? (Don’t take that accurately, he’s still a old fart so he might be into classical too.)

Abraham Lincoln – Operas! Who would’ve guessed he’s a theater nerd. +Couldn’t play a instrument to save his life.

Andrew Johnson – Children’s voices…and war/patriotic.

Ulysses S. Grant – Marine Bands and folk. +Did not enjoy military music!

Rutherford B. Hayes – Gospel.

James A. Garfield – Don’t know, but he was a keyboardist/bassist.

Chester A. Arthur - Fisk Jubilee Singers. +Their performance of "Safe in the Arms of Jesus" moved President Arthur to tears.

Grover Cleveland – Traditional American Folk.

Benjamin Harrison – Marine Bands. +Known for adding music to the White House Easter Egg Roll in 1889.

William McKinley – Jazz. +McKinley and First Lady Ida enjoyed ragtime music and dancing, including the American two-step, which they introduced at a White House Valentine's Day concert in 1901.

Theodore Roosevelt – National Anthems, and classical. +Enjoyed playing for his family and even composed his own pieces. He believed that music was one of the most forceful instruments for refining manners and softening character.

William Howard Taft - Enrico Caruso records, +Taft also had a gifted amateur pianist wife, Helen, who practiced almost every day.

Woodrow Wilson – Classical. +Was a violinist and sung Tenor, During World War I, he famously said, “Music now, more than ever before, is a national need”.

Warren G. Harding – Operas. +“I played every instrument but the slide trombone and the E-flat cornet.”

Calvin Coolidge - Couldn’t find anything, but he was known to play the harmonica in his free time. +After the breakfast, the White House lawns hosted impromptu entertainment by 40 stars from stage and screen, including Ray Miller's Jazz Band.

Herbert Hoover - The Hampton and Tuskegee choirs. +The Hoovers also hosted concerts and "musicales" at the White House, often after important dinners or receptions.

Franklin D. Roosevelt – Country.

Harry S. Truman – Didn’t like “modern noises”, preferred classical. +Truman was known to play piano for guests at the White House.

Dwight D. Eisenhower – Military music and Guy Lombardo. +In 1958, Eisenhower and his wife Mamie became the first presidential couple to bring Broadway musical theater to the White House.

John F. Kennedy - Broadway show tunes and Irish ballads. +First Lady Jacqueline Kennedy actively promoted the arts in the White House, organizing concerts and performances.

Lyndon B. Johnson – Musical Theater and country.

Richard Nixon – Classical and Touch of rock. +Played the piano, violin, clarinet, saxophone, and accordion, also granted Presley a federal narcotics badge during this visit.

Gerald Ford – Blues and Jazz.

Jimmy Carter - The Allman Brothers Band. +"Rock & Roll President.”

Ronald Reagan – Classic Rock.

George H. W. Bush – Classics.

Bill Clinton – Elvis Presley and Rock. +Had a music room in the White House for playing his saxophone, loved Rock and Roll of the '50's and '60's.

George W. Bush – Country.

Barrack Obama – Lizzo, Shakira, and Beyoncé. +On several occasions, he has burst into song, to the delight of his audience.

Donald Trump – Guns ‘N Roses. +Beyoncé, Foo Fighters and Jack White all expressed their dismay at Trump's team appearing to use their work without authorization. (Valid.)

Joe Biden – Adele.

ALL information is off Google, I tried not to use any Wikipedia or easier edited sites, but if anything is wrong, blame the internet, not me.

[sassysugawara]

Hiiii i just wanted to say i read your kaebedo series on ao3 about 2 years ago and have been rereading it regularly ever since! I really loved your characterization of them and your writing is so good too!! Anyway you're probably not into genshin or fic writing anymore but i just wanted to let you know i often visit your ao3 profile just because and if you wish to come back and drop a lil one shot whether it be kaebedo or not, i will most definitely be there to read it 🩷 Hope you're doing well, have a good day! also haha i don't use tublr so sorry if i wasn't meant to post this here

Hi!!!

Wow thank you so much for taking the time to write!

I am still very much into fic writing and Genshin (though the Genshin obsession has cooled off since 2022). I’m actually working on a longer Daisuga fic right now!

Writing for Genshin is so hard because the lore updates every 6 weeks. My first Kaebedo fic is a rough read for me because that was before the 2.3 update confirmed Albedo’s lore. Tidal Locking is my baby, though, because it’s essentially my treatise on love and what it means to be human lol.

I needed this encouragement today :’) I’ll get back to my writing eventually. And a one-shot isn’t a bad way to start.

[montanamp3]

I KNOW IT'S FOR THE BETTER I KNOW IT'S FOR THE BETTER I KNOW IT'S FOR THE BETTER I KNOW IT'S FOR THE BETTER I KNOW IT'S FOR THE BETTER I KNOW IT'S FOR THE BETTER (no more english minor ☹️)

[ahb-writes]

"I really don't think artists should compete with each other."

("Jane Lane" in Daria, S2E1: "Arts 'n Crass")

[intersexfairy]

art class in elementary school was awesome. got to make shit out of clay and paper mache and be creative to your little hearts content. and then you got to middle/high school and they were like. ok class, i'm going to give you all the exact same fruits and vases. draw them. and if you were like well. i dont wanna draw these. i wanna draw what makes me happy and i cant finish this project because it doesnt inspire me whatsoever. they were like ok understood. here's an F.

[crybaby-bkg]

the terrible terrible thing about writing slow burn while also trying to keep it under 15 chapters is the constant WORRYING of pacing????? are things going too slow and will it be hard to engage with???? are things going too fast and it feels like rushing??? is a kiss too much 19 chapters in???? I thought it was supposed to be under 15????? who am I here?????????

[pichiru]

Some super fun/cool art I’ve done in the last month or so :3